Grappling with Paralyzed Emotions

Grappling with Paralyzed Emotions is a courageous and deeply personal memoir by Rodney D. Roby, chronicling his decades-long battle with Schizoaffective Disorder. Originally written as a series of heartfelt letters to his psychiatrist in 1988, Rodney revisits these pages over thirty years later, offering new insights and reflections with raw honesty and emotional depth.

This book takes readers inside the mind and heart of someone living with a complex mental illness, revealing the painful intersections of trauma, confusion, isolation, and faith. Through vivid memories of childhood struggles, strained relationships, and moments of deep despair, Rodney also shares the healing power of spiritual growth, family support, and personal resilience.

Grappling with Paralyzed Emotions isn’t just a memoir—it’s a message of hope. It’s for anyone who has battled mental illness, for families seeking to understand their loved ones, and for professionals wanting a more human perspective. With every page, Rodney reminds us that even in our most broken places, healing is possible.